THIS OLNY APPLIES TO ME! IF YOU CAN RELATE THATS GREAT! NOTHING IS WRITTEN TO OFFEND ANYONE!!! PLEASE DO NOT JUDGE ME, OR GOD.
I am not that...connected...with god. I have had doubts about him because he was not there when I was going through a lot with my family and at school.
I was never popular or had a lot of good friends. And my dad hurt me when I was younger. He wasn't around a lot... and I got effected by that.
I never had good friends that would have supported me through the things I needed good support.
Two nights ago... I was feeling really fragile... my household is not an open place, where everyone can talk about anything without getting judged.
So when it was SUPER late, I closed my door. And for the first time in years I stared praying. I really did feel as if Gods was present and he listen to me for those minutes I spoke to him.
I know I am not a saint. I talk back to my parents sometimes. I swear, but I do know that I am good person. I've been there for everyone in my life, even the people who absolutely do not deserve my trust and time. But I am there as a non judgmental friend for everyone. For the first time I needed someone to be there for me like that.
He just happens to be reachable.